Memoirs of a camera... I

Well I finally bought my own camera... and from now on I shall share some of my pictures... for now enjoy!...

While waiting for Juani I took this... I like the reflection

Mario y yo... notece que tengo pulso de maraquero...

Juani tratando de leer su futuro a la Harry Potter... carefull with bad omens :P

Mi primera foto con la camara en mi cuarto de Tecate... media borrosa pero me gusto

Flying heads: Fer-kun (Sgenius) Me and Mijares

Super Fer-kun (Sgenius) y el Che Compañero (Oscar)

A little bit of insanity at 3:40 am

Have you ever felt tainted?... that the things you've done haunt you... people say that we all have skeletons in our closets... well... I have zombies... when I finally think that they're gone for good... they show up... some have been butchered... others burned... hey I've even decapitated one... and that one sure got the picture... but that's not the point... its 3:12 am... and I can't sleep... Apparently my zombie "friends" have teamed up to make my night a living hell...

(ok por un momento interrumpo mi desahogo... paso algo super raro... estaba escuchando musica como regularmente lo hago cuando estoy en mi pc... y se esuchca otra voz que no deberia de estar en el ambiente... apago la musica y mis bocinas estan transmitiendo una estacion de radio... lo raro es que mis bocinas no tienen esa funcion... gah... creepy... volvi a poner musica e ignorare la estacion de radio desconocida.................... *shiver*)

(ok gotta concentrate on this....)

I have been trying to go to sleep for quite some time now... and I just can't stop thinking about a lot of things that have happened in my life... the worst is that most of them are things that I truly feel bad about... I'm not proud of a lot of things I've done in my short 22 year lifetime... I think my problem is that some zombies won't die because part of me keeps them close... I guess it's the part of me that I have always detested... the side that doesn't let go of things so easily... the mask of perfectionism... a veil that blinds, hates and is self-centered...

I feel as if those things are being screamed in my head...

DAMN ZOMBIES.... LET ME BE IN PEACE... LET ME SLEEP... LET ME DREAM ONCE MORE... GO AWAY OR ILL GET THE BLOWTORCH... AND IF IT FAILS... THE AXE... AND IF THAT DOES NOT WORK... THE CHAINSAW...

(I have none of these things... but hey.... maybe they'll buy it and go away... just for a little while so i can finally sleep)

damn zombies... damn unknown radiostation that is really creeping me out!!... damn it! let me sleep!

Surreal...

gong by mi4

Today for a moment it
seemed like another world...

For an instant time stopped...

And I wished that I could
listen to you play
the piano for a little while more...

Tag you're it....

Bueno... Fernando me seleccionó para postear sobre 5 hábitos extraños que tenga... so here we go... note: they are not in order of weirdness or such...

• Ok... se que esto sonara raro pero pues es el punto... no soporto que alguien se siente en mis sabanas... se puede sentar en la colcha... pero si esta mi cama destendida y alguien llega y se sienta en mis sabanas es tortura para mi...
• Dibujo impulsivamente... si veo un espacio en blanco en alguna hoja, servilleta, cuaderno, manual de IBM (jajaja verdad Chuy?), etc etc y tengo a la mano algo con que dibujar... lo hago...
• Cuando mi computadora viaja en mi carro le pongo el cinturon de seguridad y regularmente... va en el asiento de atras... (si eso hago con mi computadora no quiero pensar como sere con mis hijos... daaaamn)
• Cuando estoy muy muy muy aburrida me pongo a escribir... a veces lo primero que se me viene a la mente es lo escribo... o tambien hago cadenas de letras de canciones que se relacionan unas con otras (ya sea por tema, situacion, o algo por el estilo)... en otras ocasiones solo hago planas de "redrum" para asustar a Fer .. y si de plano estoy muy inspirada pues llegan a salir poemas muy interesantes...
• Por ultimo... este habito no es completamente consciente... pero bueno... tengo una tendencia de imaginarme cosas muy muy extrañas... tal como si estuviera dirigiendo una pelicula... y en muchas ocasiones (a pesar que odio ese genero) gira alrededor del suspenso y el terror... Gilda ha sido testigo de este tipo de situaciones... tal como poder convertir el laboratorio de redes en una escena perfecta para la pelicula de 28 days later... ahora... digo que no es completamente consciente por que tengo pesadillas complejas... algun dia compartire una por este medio... pero realmente siento que mi subconsciente le encanta jugar bromas... y realmente lo disfruta... maldito subconsciente....

Bueno ahora llega la hora de pasar el honor a 5 personas...
And the winners are:
Pollito! Victor! Emmanuel! Carol! ... y... damn... se me acabaron las personas... oh well... a ellos....

Wikipedia says:

• doofus (plural: doofuses) A person with poor judgment and taste
• dolt (noun): a stupid person
• blockhead (noun): a stupid person.
• oaf (noun): Originally, an elf's child; a changeling left by fairies or goblins; hence, a deformed or foolish child; a simpleton; an idiot.
• Idiot (plural: idiots): A common term for a person of low general intelligence.
• Moron (plural: morons): A stupid person.
• Stupid (adjective): Lacking in intelligence.

Yet its amazing that you don't need to use them to make someone feel like one... or at least I have gotten that inbetween lines every now and then...

For you...

It's amazing how you can make me smile,
How you brighten my day,
Just by listening to your voice makes me feel better,
It's been a couple of days,
Yet it feels like months,
Thank you for calling,
For your support,
For the wishes and promises that I know you will keep,
You are a guiding light in all this darkness,
Thank you once again,
Thank you a million times more...
Thank you

Oddball...

Well it has been a while since I read Slashdot news.. and today i came along with a very interesting article... THE ESSENCE OF A GEEK... its quite cute... filled with interesting comments as how the word geek showed up in our language... enjoy!

"fake a lie" by bittertaste




...everybody hurts sometimes...
-REM

Copy copy paste paste

Me incluyo en la encuesta musical... y selecciono a Robert Smith (The Cure)... GO ROBERT!! (ni que fuera pokemon... jajajajaj... ah...) ... la curada de esto es contestar las preguntas con fragmentos o titlos de canciones de la banda que seleccionaste.. en mi caso sera The cure... en el caso de Fer fue Linux jajajaja... for some strange reason... *hint hint*


¿Eres hombre o mujer?

Here you are
Cata cata cata!
Caterpillar girl
(The Caterpillar)

Descríbete:

However big I ever feel
It's never enough
Whatever I do to make it real
It's never enough
In any way I try to speak
It's never enough
(Never Enough)

¿Qué sienten las personas acerca de ti?

And you never know...
(Strange Attraction)

¿Cómo te sientes de ti mismo?

Kick out the gloom
Kick out the blues
Tear out the pages with all the bad news
Pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls
Tear up the stairs and tear up the floors
Oh just burn down the house!
Burn down the street!
Turn everything red and the beat is complete
With the sound of your world
Going up in the fire
It's a perfect day to throw back your head
And kiss it all goodbye!
(doing the unstuck)

¿Cómo describirías tu anterior relación sentimental?

Remember me and smile...
(treasure)

Describe la relación con tu actual novio / novia o pretendiente:

You glow inside my head
You hold me hypnotized
I'm mesmerized...
(the caterpillar)

¿Dónde quisieras estar ahora?

And so we watch the sun come up
From the edge of the deep green sea
(from the edge of the deep green sea)

¿Cómo eres con respecto al amor?

No-one will ever take your place
I am lost in you
No-one will ever take your place
So in love with you

I lift my eyes from watching you
To watch the star rise shine onto
Your dreaming face and dreaming smile
You're dreaming worlds for me

(this twilight garden)

¿Cómo es tu vida?

So dizzy mr busy - too much rush to talk to billy
All the silly frilly things have to first get done
In a minute - sometime soon - maybe next time - make it june
(cut here)

¿Qué pedirías si tuvieras un solo deseo?

To wish impossible things...
(to wish imposible things)

Escribe alguna cita o frase sabia.

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said
But it ends the day you understand
There is no if... just and
(there is no if)

Ahora despídete

Goodbye sugar girl
(sugar girl)

Robert Smith's image was taken from a fan web page, I don't know who took it, kudos to him/her, I love it :D

little duckling with a blindfold

when will you see the light of day?

off the others go to make it in life

why wont you run out of your cage?

Why can't I just shut up?

I have the amazing hability to but my foot in my mouth... to really screw things up when everything should be perfect... to just say the exact words to make someone feel bad and not even realize it until its too late... now the real problem is what I do when the damage is done?... I make a fool out of myself... try to fix things in the most desperate and pathetic way... and to make it worse it dosent even work...

IM REALLY SORRY.

while cleaning my room... i found old study pages full of drawings... and this...

and looking at my mirror

fortunes lost and found

in the end all is left is me

The other day I was talking to Beto... and he told me about this interesting theory he found on the internet while looking for info about the Dark side of the moon (Pink Floyd) album played with the Wizard of Oz movie... but that is a different story... anywho... its about this rumor that one day showed up... which said that Paul McCartney (from the beatles) had died in a car accident in 1966 and was replaced by someone else... I am a very big Beatle fan... and when i read this not only the theories were creepy but some pictures we out of it too... its said that the rest of the band knew about it and so did the record company... they found a double... a little plastic surgery and voila! you have yourself a new Paul... but that the band couldnt help "giving" clues about it after the incident... if you are interested Wikipedia gives a good resume of the whole story (with a few even more dumb add-ons)... there is this one that gives hints based on albums... and this other one has some creepy pictures... oh well... i just wanted to share this in my time of complete boredness... in the end if it is true... boy were those Beatle guys messed up to put such things in the records... if its not... boy are some people really messed up to come up with such things... what do you guys think?

i hate...

i hate goodbyes...
i hate feeling helpless...
i hate when you walk away...
i hate to walk away...
i hate avoiding...
i hate not facing you...
i hate not to have the guts to say all that i feel...
i hate being like this...

i hate when it comes to a point when i dont want to go... when i dont want you to go... when i want nothing else to matter... when i cant even write everything that i feel... i hate this...